anner.bloodandgold(v2)-第75部分
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Once again I kept my distance; settling for the silence and the wind; and the voices I could hear with preternatural ears。 Within moments he had left them with a fortune in gold coin and e out again into the falling snow。
I reached out to take his arm and fort him。 But he turned away。 He wouldn't look at me。 Something obsessed him;
〃My mother was there;〃 he whispered; as he looked down once more towards the river。 〃She didn't know me。 So be it。 I gave them what I had to give。〃
Again I tried to embrace him; but he shook me off。
〃What's wrong then?〃 I asked。 〃Why do you stare? Why do you look that way towards the river? What would you do? 〃
How I wished I could read his mind! His mind; and his alone; was shut to me! And how angry and determined he looked。
〃My father wasn't killed in the grasslands;〃 he said; his voice quavering; the wind whipping his auburn hair。 〃My father is alive。 He's in the tavern down there。〃
〃You want to see him?〃
〃I have to see him。 I have to tell him that I didn't die! Didn't you listen to them talking in my house to me?〃
〃No;〃 I said… 〃I gave you your time with them。 Was I wrong?〃
〃They said he'd bee the drunkard because he had failed to save his son。〃 He glared at me as if I had done him some dreadful wrong。 〃My father; Ivan; the brave one; the hunter。 Ivan; the warrior; the singer of songs whom everyone loved…Ivan is the drunkard now because he failed to save his son!〃
〃Be calm。 We'll go to the tavern。 You can tell him in your own way。〃
He waved me off as though I were annoying him; and he set off down the street with a mortal tread。
Together we entered the tavern。 It was dark and full of the scent of burning oil。 Fishermen; traders; killers; drank here together。 Everyone took notice of us for a moment and then ignored us; but Amadeo at once spied a man lying on a bench to the back of the rectangular room which made up the place。
Again; I wanted to leave him to what he meant to do; but I feared for him and I listened as he sat down now close to this sleeping man。
It was the man of memory and the man of visions; that I knew; as soon as I studied him。 I recognized him by his red hair and red mustache and beard。 Amadeo's father; the hunter who had taken him out of the monastery that day for a dangerous mission; to ride out in search of a fort which the Mongols had already destroyed。
I shrank back into the shadows。 I watched as the luminous child removed his left glove and laid his chill supernatural hand upon the forehead of the sleeping father。 I saw the bearded man wake。 I heard them speak。
In rambling drunken confession; the father gave forth his guilt in abundance as though it belonged to anyone who roused him。
He had shot arrow after arrow。 He had gone after the fierce Tatars with his sword。 Every other man in the party had died。 And his son; my Amadeo; stolen; and he was now Ivan the Drunkard; yes; he confessed it。 He could scarcely hunt enough to buy his drink。 He was a warrior no more。
Patiently; slowly; Amadeo spoke to him; pulling him out of his ramblings; revealing the truth with carefully chosen words。
〃I am your son; sir。 I did not die that day。 Yes; they took me。 But I am alive。〃
Never had I seen Amadeo so obsessed with either love or misery; with either happiness or grief。 But the man was stubborn; the man was drunk; and the man wanted one thing from this strange person prodding him and that was more wine。
From the proprietor I bought a bottle of sack for this man who wouldn't listen; who wouldn't look at this exquisite young one who sought to claim his attention now。
I gave the bottle of sack to Amadeo。
Then I moved along the wall so that I might better see Amadeo's face; and all I saw there was obsession。 He must make this man understand。
Patiently; he spoke until his words had penetrated the drunken haze from which the man stared at him。
〃Father; I've e to tell you。 They took me to a far…away place; to the city of Venice; and I fell into the hands of one who made me rich; Father; rich; and gave me learning。 I'm alive; sir。 I'm as you see me now。
Oh; how strange was this speech ing from one infused with the Blood。 Alive? How so; alive; Amadeo?
But my thoughts were my own in the darkness。 I had no role in this reunion。
At last; the man; sitting up to face his son; began to understand。
Amadeo was trembling; his eyes fixed on those of his father。
〃Forget me now; please; Father;〃 he begged。 〃But remember this; for the love of God。 I shall never be buried in the muddy caves of the monastery。 No。 Other things may happen to me; but that; I won't suffer。 Because of you; that you wouldn't have it; that you came that day and demanded I ride out with you; that I be your son!〃
What on earth was Amadeo saying? What did these words mean?
He was on the verge of crying the terrible blood tears which we can never really hide。 But as he rose from the bench where his father sat; the elder caught him tightly by his hand。
He knew his son! Andrei; he called him。 Fie had recognized him for who he was。
〃Father; I must go;〃 said Amadeo; 〃but you must never forget that you saw me。 You must never forget what I said; that you saved me from those dark and muddy caves。 Father; you gave me life; not death。 Don't be the drunkard anymore; Father。 Be the hunter again。 Bring the Prince meat for his table。 Be the singer of songs。 Remember that I came to tell you this myself。〃
〃I want you; my son; stay with me;〃 said the man。 His drunken languor had left him; and he held tight to Amadeo's hand。 〃Who will ever believe that I saw you?〃
Amadeo's tears had risen。 Could the man see the blood?
At last Amadeo pulled back; and removing his glove; he pulled off his rings; and he placed these in his father's hands。
〃Remember me by these;〃 he said; 〃and tell my mother that I was the man who came to see her tonight。 She didn't know me。 Tell her the gold is good gold。〃
〃Stay with me; Andrei;〃 said the father。 〃This is your home。 Who is it that takes you away now? 〃
It was more than Amadeo could bear。
〃I live in the city of Venice; Father;〃 he said。 〃It's what I know now I have to go。〃
He was out of the tavern so quickly his father could not see it; and I; once seeing what he meant to do; had preceded him; and we stood in the snow…covered muddy street together。
〃It's time for us to leave this place; Master;〃 he said to me。 His gloves were gone; and the cold was fierce。 〃Oh; but that I had never e here and never seen him and never known that he suffered that I had been lost。〃
〃But look;〃 I said; 〃your mother es。 I'm sure of it。 She knew you and there; she es;〃 I pointed at the small figure approaching who held a bundle in her arms。
〃Andrei;〃 she said as she drew closer。 〃It's the last one you ever painted。 Andrei; I knew it was you。 Who else would have e? Andrei; this is the ikon your father brought back on the day you were lost。〃
Why didn't he take it from her hands?
〃You must keep it; Mother;〃 he said of this ikon which he had once linked to his destiny。 He was weeping。 〃Keep it for the little ones。 I won't take it; no。〃
Patiently; she accepted this。
And then another small present she entrusted to him; a painted egg…one of those treasures of Kiev which mean so much to the people who decorate them with intricate designs。
Quickly; gently; he took it from her; and then he embraced her; and in a fervent whisper assured her that he had done nothing wicked to acquire his wealth and that he might some night be able to e again。 Oh; what lovely lies。
But I could see that this woman; though he loved her; did not matter to him。 Yes; he would give her gold; for that meant nothing。 But it was the man who had mattered。 The man mattered as the monks had mattered。 It was the man who had wrung the strong emotions from him。 The man had brought from him bold words。
I was stunned by all。 But wasn't Amadeo stunned by it himself? He had thought the man dead; and so had I。
But finding him alive; Amadeo had revealed the obsession…the man had fought the monks for Amadeo's very soul。
And as we made our journey back to Venice; I knew that Amadeo's love for his father was far greater than any love he had ever felt for me。
We did not speak of it; you understand; but I knew that it was the figure of his father who reigned in Amadeo's heart。 It was the figure of that powerful bearded man who had so vigorously fought for life rather than death within the monastery who held supremacy over all conflicts that Amadeo was ever to know。
I had seen it with my own eyes; this obsession。 I had seen it in a matter of moments in a riverfront tavern; but I had known it for what it was。
Always before this journey to Russia I had thought the split in Amadeo's mind was between the rich and varied art of Venice and the strict and stylized art of old Russia。
But now I knew that was not so。
The split in him was between the monastery with its ikons and its penance on the one hand; and his father; the robust hunter who had dragged him away from the monas