lh.narcissusinchains-第33部分

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　I　turned　back。
　He　was　standing　facing　me；　rubbing　liquid　soap　from　one　of　the　wall　dispensers　on　his　body。　He　was　doing　his　arms　as　I　turned　around；　lathering　his　chest　as　he　talked。　〃If　you　want　us　to　go　with　you　tomorrow；　we　would　be　honored。〃
　〃I　can't　let　you　drag　your　pard　into　our　mess。〃
　His　hands　slid　downward；　trailing　white　suds　over　his　stomach；　his　hips；　then　slid　between　his　legs；　working　the　soap　over　himself。　I　knew　from　my　own　experience　of　getting　the　stuff　off　me　that　you　had　to　scrub　more　where　it　had　touched　you；　but　his　hands　stayed；　until　he　was　slick；　thick　with　bubbles；　and　partially　erect　by　the　time　his　hands　slid　to　his　thighs。
　My　mouth　was　dry；　and　I　realized　we　hadn't　said　anything　in　several　minutes。　I'd　just　been　watching　him　spread　soap　on　himself。　The　thought　brought　heat　in　a　rush　up　my　face。　Micah　continued　to　soap　his　legs　slowly；　taking　more　time　with　each　movement　than　he　needed　to。　He　was　definitely　doing　it　for　my　benefit。　I　needed　to　leave。
　〃If　you　are　my　Nimir…Ra；　then　your　mess　is　my　mess；〃　he　said；　head　still　bent　over　his　legs；　face　hidden　from　me；　so　that　all　I　could　see　was　the　line　of　his　body　as　he　stood　in　the　aisle；　away　from　the　water　so　the　soap　wouldn't　rub　off。
　I　had　to　clear　my　throat　to　say；　〃I　don't　want　to　pick　out　curtains；　Micah。〃
　〃The　power　between　us　is　enough　that　I'll　agree　to　any　arrangement　you　want。〃　He　stood　up　then；　stretching　his　arm　back　to　soap　his　shoulders。　It　made　him　stretch　the　front　of　his　body　in　a　long　line；　and　I　was　painfully　aware　of　him。　I　turned；　really　meaning　to　go　out　the　door　this　time。
　〃Anita；〃　he　said。
　I　stopped　in　the　doorway；　but　this　time　I　didn't　turn　around。　〃What？〃　I　sounded　grumpy。
　〃It's　alright　to　be　attracted　to　me。　You　can't　help　yourself。〃
　That　made　me　laugh；　a　good　normal　laugh。　〃Oh；　you　don't　have　a　high　opinion　of　yourself；　do　you？〃　But　I　stayed　facing　away　from　him。
　〃It's　not　a　high　opinion　of　myself。　You　are　a　Nimir…Ra；　and　I　am　the　first　Nimir…Raj　that　you've　ever　met。　Our　power；　our　beasts　are　attracted　to　each　other。　We're　meant　to　be　attracted　to　each　other。〃
　I　turned　then；　slowly；　trying　for　eye　contact　and　failing。　He　was　turned　away　with　the　back　of　his　body　facing　me。　He　was　still　spreading　soap　over　his　shoulders。　The　suds　slid　slowly　down　his　skin　towards　his　slim　waist。
　〃We　don't　know　yet　that　I'm　a　were…anything。〃　My　voice　was　breathy。
　He　managed　to　reach　his　entire　back；　his　arms　moving　effortlessly　over　his　skin；　hands　smoothing　over　the　tightness　of　his　buttocks。　〃You　feel　the　call　of　my　body；　as　I　feel　yours。〃
　My　pulse　was　beating　way　too　hard。　〃You're　an　attractive　man；　naked；　covered　in　soap。　I'm　human；　so　sue　me。〃
　He　turned　around；　still　soaped　and　slick。　And　he　was　huge。
　My　mouth　went　dry。　My　body　tightened　so　hard　and　so　suddenly；　it　almost　hurt。　It　deepened　my　breathing；　made　me　have　to　swallow　my　pulse。
　〃You're　not　human；　that's　the　difference。　That's　why　you　keep　looking　even　when　you　don't　want　to。〃　He　walked　towards　me；　slowly；　moving　like　all　leopards　could　move　when　they　wanted　to。　Like　he　had　muscles　in　places　that　humans　didn't。　He　glided　towards　me　like　some　great；　slinking　cat；　his　nude　body　glistening　with　suds　and　water；　his　hair　plastered　in　ringlets　to　his　shoulders；　around　his　face。　Those　huge　yellow　green　eyes　suddenly　looked　perfectly　at　home　in　his　face。
　〃You　don't　understand　yet　how　rare　it　is　for　two　lycanthropes　to　share　their　beasts　as　we　did。〃　He　was　almost　in　front　of　me　now。　〃They　flowed　in　and　out　of　our　bodies。〃　He　stood　there；　not　touching；　not　yet。　〃They　were　like　two　great　cats；　rubbing　their　furred　sides　against　each　other。〃　He　ran　his　hands　slick　with　soap　up　my　bare　arms　as　he　said　it。　I　had　to　close　my　eyes。　He　was　describing　exactly　how　it　had　felt；　as　if　he　had　read　my　mind；　or　had　felt　exactly　the　same　thing。
　His　hands　slid　up　my　arms　to　my　shoulders；　to　my　neck；　spreading　slick　and　wet　across　my　skin。　His　soapy　hands　cupped　my　face；　and　I　felt　his　face　moving　towards　mine　before　his　lips　touched　me。　The　kiss　was　gentle；　his　body　carefully　not　touching　me。
　He　slid　his　fingers　into　the　edge　of　the　towel；　gripping　the　cloth；　pulling　me　forward。　It　made　me　open　my　eyes。　It　took　a　few　steps　to　realize　he　was　leading　me　towards　the　water。
　〃You'll　need　to　wash　the　soap　off；〃　he　said。
　I　was　shaking　my　head；　and　finally　stopped　moving　with　him。　He　kept　pulling　on　the　towel　and　it　unwrapped；　starting　to　slide　down　my　body。　I　grabbed　it；　holding　it　just　below　my　suddenly　bare　breasts。
　〃No；〃　I　said；　my　voice　strangled；　but　I　repeated　it。　〃No。〃
　He　stepped　into　me；　pressing　the　slick　hardness　of　him　against　my　lower　hand　and　arm。　He　tried　to　uncurl　my　fingers　from　the　towel；　and　I　held　on　for　dear　life。　〃Touch　me；　Anita；　cup　me　in　your　hands。〃
　〃No。〃
　〃I　know　you　want　to。　I　can　smell　it；〃　and　he　moved　his　face　above　my　skin；　drawing　his　breath　in　and　out　against　my　wet　skin。　〃I　can　feel　it。〃　He　rubbed　his　hands　up　my　arms　again；　over　my　shoulders；　down　towards　my　breasts；　but　stopped　without　touching　them。　〃I　can　taste　it。〃　He　licked　a　slow　line　along　the　edge　of　my　cheek。　I　shivered　and　wanted　to　step　back；　but　it　was　like　I　was　frozen　in　place。　I　couldn't　move。
　I　found　my　voice；　shaky；　but　mine。　My　hands　clutched　to　my　body；　because　I　knew　if　I　touched　him　we　were　in　trouble。　〃This　isn't　like　me；　Micah。　I'm　not　like　this。　You're　a　stranger。　I　don't　do　strangers。〃
　〃I'm　not　a　stranger。　I'm　your　Nimir…Raj；　and　you　are　my　Nimir…Ra。　We　could　never　be　strangers。〃
　He　kissed　his　way　down　my　face　to　my　neck；　biting　gently　at　me；　and　it　made　my　knees　weak。　He　came　back　up　to　my　lips；　and　when　he　kissed　me　I　could　taste　the　soap　from　my　skin。　The　feel　of　him　pressed　against　the　front　of　my　body；　close　enough　that　if　I　opened　my　hand　I'd　be　able　to　hold　him；　was　overwhelming。　I　realized　it　was　more　than　just　sex。　I　wanted　to　feed　off　of　him　again；　not　with　my　teeth　but　with　my　body。　I　wanted　to　drink　in　the　energy　of　him　through　my　skin；　my　bare　skin　pressed　to　his。　I　wanted　it　so　badly。　His　hands　slid　over　my　breasts；　covering　them　in　soap；　making　them　slick；　the　nipples　already　tight　and　hard。　My　arms　slid　around　his　waist；　using　the　pressure　of　our　bodies　to　keep　the　towel　in　place。　He　moved　against　my　body；　and　his　chest　was　so　slick；　so　smooth　rubbing　against　my　breasts。
　He　began　to　walk　backwards　with　his　arms　locked　behind　me；　moving　us　back　towards　the　water。　My　hands　moved　over　the　slick　hardness　of　his　back；　sliding　dangerously　lower。　It　was　as　if　I　wanted　to　press　every　inch　of　myself　to　him；　to　roll　his　body　around　me　like　a　sheet　and　drink　him　in　through　the　pores　of　my　skin。
　I　opened　that　link　with　Jean…Claude　and　found　him　sitting；　waiting；　patient。　I　called　for　help；　and　distantly　I　heard　his　voice　in　my　head。　〃It　is　all　I　can　do；　ma　petite；　to　control　my　own　appetites；　you　must　control　your　own。〃
　〃What's　happening　to　me？〃　Even　as　I　asked；　Micah　moved　his　body　that　fraction　away　that　allowed　the　towel　to　slide　down；　and　when　he　quickly　moved　back；　he　was　pressed　against　my　groin　and　stomach；　and　it　was　déjà　vu　enough　to　draw　a　small　sound　out　of　my　throat。
　Jean…Claude　looked　up；　and　I　knew　that　he　saw　what　was　happening　with　Micah；　that　with　a　thought　he　could　feel　what　was　happening；　as　if　it　were　his　hands　sliding　down　the　slick；　soaped　skin。　My　hand　slid　over　the　thick　hardness　of　Micah。　He　half…collapsed　against　me；　as　I　caressed　him；　and　I　knew　that　it　hadn't　been　my　idea　to　touch　him。　Jean…Claude　had　wanted　to　know　what　it　felt　like。　He　drew　away　enough　for　me　to　move　my　hand；　but　the　damage　had　been　done。　Micah　dragged　me　into　the　water；　surer　now　than　ever　that　I　would　say　yes。
　Jean…Claude's　voice　in　my　head。　〃You　can　feed　off　his　lust；　but　the　price　for　that　is　that　you　will　crave　his　lust；　his　sex。　It　is　the　double…edged　sword　of　being　incubus。　The　sword　edge　I　have　walked　for　centuries。〃
　〃Help　me！〃
　〃I　cannot。　You　must　ride　this　thing　yourself。　And　you　will　either　conquer　it；　or　be　conquered。　You　felt　what　happened　when　I　interfered　just　now。　Because　I　have　denied　myself　feeding　through　my　body。　I　knew　you　would　not　approve；　so　I　denied　myself。　And　being　inside　your　body　while　you　touch　him；　while　you　feed；　would　be　my　undoing。　I　crave　you　more　than　you　will　ever　crave　the　man　in　your　arms。　I　have　wanted　to　take　your　body　in　the　way　that　only　I　could　take　it。　To　feed　from　your　sex；　not　from　a　vein。　But　I　knew　that　would　frighten　you　more　than　blood。〃
　Micah　turned　me　towards　the　wall；　putting　my　hands　up　against　the　tile；　pressing　his　body　against　my　back。　Jean…Claude's　voice　was　soft　in　my　head；　more　intimate　than　Micah's　touch。　〃I　did　not　know　you　would　gain　this　demon　from　me；　ma　petite；　and　nothing　I　can　say　will　convince　you　of　that。　I　know　that。　I　await　you　here；　until　you　have　wrestled　the　demon；　whatever　the　oute。〃　And　he　shielded　from　me；　hid　himself　away　so　he　would　not　feel　what　was　happening；　left　me　alone　to　make　my　choice；　if　I　was　still　capable　of　choosing。
　I　found　I　did　have　a　voice　and　said；　〃Micah；　stop；　please　stop。〃
　Micah　licked　the　back　of　my　neck；　and　I　shuddered；　pressed　against　the　wet　wall。
　〃Please；　Micah；　I'm　not　on　birth　c